BTS' SUGA | Min Yoongi - The Last

 

The Last(English translation)

The hidden side of a well known idol rapper

A weaker side of me of stands there, it’s a little dangerous

Depression and obsessive-compulsion relapses again

Hell no perhaps this might be my true self

 

Damn huh a separation of reality

A contrast of ideals, my head hurts

My social phobia started when I was around 18

Yes, it was around that time that my mind became more and more polluted

 

Sometimes I even scare myself

Because of the self-hatred and depression that came back to visit

Min Yoongi is already dead (I killed him)

A passion that is dead and comparing myself with others has become every day for me

 

The first day at the psychiatrist’s office, my parents came up*

We got consultation together, my parents said they didn’t really know who I was

I don’t even know who I am, then who would know?

Friends? Maybe you? No one knows who I am.

 

The doctor asked me. Have you ever-

I answered without hesitation. That I had done it before.

 

The words I say out of habit, I don’t give a shit I don’t give a fuck

Those words are all uh words to hide my weak self

I want to erase that day, yes the gig I can barely remember

Facing myself who hid in the bathroom because I was scared of the people

 

That time I, that time I

Thought success would compensate for everything

But you know what, but you know what

It feels like I’m becoming a monster as time goes by

 

I exchanged my youth with the monster called success and he wants more wealth

My greed which was my weapon turned into something that would swallow me up, ruin me, and sometimes put a chain on me

Some people try to block my mouth and tell me to swallow the forbidden fruit**

I don’t want it they want me to leave the garden***

 

Shit shit I get it already so stop it

The cause of everything is me so I’ll quit on my own

If my unhappiness is your happiness then I will willingly be unhappy

If I’m the target of hatred then I will stand at the guillotine for you

 

The things I could only imagine became reality

My childhood dreams are now in front of me

I was a nothing that performed in front of only two people, now Tokyo Dome is right in front of me

With the only life you have live it wilder than anyone else, anyone can live passingly

My fan my hommie my fam I hope you don’t worry, I’m really okay now damn

 

I denied my nature numerous times

My address is an idol I won’t deny it

Numerous times my anguish dug into my mind

There was no answer to my wandering

 

The self respect I thought I betrayed has now become my pride

My fans hold your head up with pride who does it better than me uh

 

From Seiko to Rolex, from Ax**** to Olympic Gymnastics Arena

With a single hand gesture, tens of thousands of people’s heads nod

It’s not that I couldn’t do Show Me The Money, but I didn’t shit

It’s not that you guys didn’t betray us, but you couldn’t shit

The root of my creations is because I had a taste of the world’s sweetness, bitterness and even the taste of shit

Trying to sleep on the bathroom floor is now a memory to me uh it became a memory

Thanks to the accident while I was on my delivery part time job that crushed my fucking shoulder

The debut that I desperately clung on to, who do you think you’re acting like you had hardships in front of

 

From Seiko to Rolex, from Ax**** to Olympic Gymnastics Arena

With a single hand gesture, tens of thousands of people’s heads nod

Resentment gave birth to me uh look at me straight in the face uh

It’s not that you guys didn’t betray us, but you couldn’t shit